Today I want to tell you about the day I have lost my Mama.
I barely talk about it because it still hurts so much. My Mama was the greatest person you could ever imagine, she was caring and loving an warm and she had the biggest heart. She always cared about other people first, she wanted to make sure that everybody is fine. She cared for my sick grandparents, she rescued homeless pets. She helped anybody. She was always there for me. She still is. I know it. I can always feel her in my heart and everytime i have to make a decision I ask her for her opinion. I think of her every single day and I miss her so much. It is so hard to lose your Mom...you can never get over this, you can only try to live with it. I am still trying. It isn't easy because she was (and still is) such an important part of my life. I could always ask her for advice. It breaks my heart that David wasn't able to meet her. I am sure he would have loved her. And I know that my Mama loves him. He makes me happy and that is what she always wanted for me. She always made me smile.
This is my Mama:
I was 19 when my Mom died. At that time I was writing my final exams for my Abitur ( which gives you access to study at a university) and I was studying all day and night. I got up pretty early that morning because I had a lot of work to do. I left my room and when I was in the hallway I knew that something was wrong. The door to my parents bedroom was open. And it was never open during the day. So I looked everywhere and found my Mama on the bathroom floor. She wasn't unconscious. But she wasn't "there'. I can't really describe it. But I immediately did an emergency call. The minutes before the ambulance and doctors arrived were horrible. I tried to do everything I could but I did not know what was wrong with her....
They took her to the hospital. A helicopter took her to another clinic. They had to put her in an artificial coma. She had a ruptured aneurysm. She was in a coma for 4 weeks. She died 5 days after I wrote my last exam.
Why didn't I wake up earlier? Maybe that could have saved her.
Did you lose a beloved person?